Well

Yesterday was awful. I woke up feeling drugged. I was so tired that I wanted to cry. Even my husband was concerned. But, I couldn’t rest.

I guess I know why… My body was working hard to create more chaos. So we have the huge joints, and my shoulders, a knee, my fingers, feet and now this. You know how you’re meant to rest when tired and pregnant as your body is creating a human being?

That’s how I feel. An exhaustion I can’t combat. Fatigue I can’t fight. But chaos around me that I need to try control. Like checking my one twin isn’t pulling anything off my shelf and turning around to see that her twin has taken something I just finished ironing and is playing with it.

Like being so happy that they love the flowers I was given. But having to sort the mess out. I could sleep for hours. Alas, homeschooling parents of little ones who don’t have support can never rest.

Many doctors focus on the pain, but the fatigue is also a hugely detrimental symptom for us. Let’s see if I’ll ever get treatment that will help.