Tomorrow I see the surgeon about whatever is going on post op, deep inside. Not the actual wound, but below. Started with a small big pea-sized lump and it’s now a huge area of pain. Well, as big as my hand. Woke me with a huge wallop this morning at 3am and is still aching badly. Literally felt as if something smashed me inside.
I’m scared. I’m scared of the costs of diagnosing the problem, and what will be entailed in fixing it.
I got a call from the rheumatologist’s rooms. The PA said that after long deliberations, I’ll be put on Enbrel. She had said she would send forms, but I haven’t received them. The next step will be to send motivation letter to medical aid.
I’m so scared. I looked up the costs. They are impossible! Google says you’ll inject yourself every week and that depending on the dosage in each injection, I’ll pay between R4300-9000 per jab! That’s weekly! No way I can do that! And my med aid plan is one of those that orders have 100% said didn’t even pay the 80% the more expensive plans pay.
I need this. I’m in so much pain that I can’t even do my AS exercises themselves. And the thought of it progressing without me at least slowing it down… I have my cane. But I want to have the opportunity to feel so well that I don’t have to use it.
When will my body cooperate?
Let’s hope the cause for the pain is diagnosable and fixable. In an affordable manner!
Next up-the red carpet funeral.
They said I should write a book 