Oh my word! People can be so interesting. I’ve been told I have AS because I have trauma I am refusing to go resolve…I don’t have faith…And today’s one was “Because I’m not doing hot and cold therapy and using charcoal” in a nutshell.
This person kept digging and digging at me. Telling me that I got sick because I don’t “follow health reform” and that if one “follows health reform,” they won’t need surgery. Umm, tell that to my strange abdominal muscles that feel like “soft tissue.” Or to my urethra that narrowed itself so bad that it was basically strangled. Or the polyps and fibroids that keep popping up. Or the little baby that born with three urethras whose kidneys are in trouble.
Yep, all our fault because we don’t use charcoal🙄 Or maybe he has fetal trauma he hasn’t addressed?
One thing I’ve got a major problem with, is others wanting me to heal without asking God if that’s His will. What if by being ill and in pain, I’m avoiding some activity that would eventually lead to pride? I’ve seen it in runners, sharing their stats instead of just posting that they ran, wanting to take part in marathons to show others (And I mean specific people I know. Not judging others for their motives for running the Comrades.) what their bodies are capable of. Even planning and running specific times (as per schedule they have ) on the Sabbath because they’re preparing for the Comrades. And as a Christian I ask, “But what will this do? Will this help you? Will this inspire anyone to be holy, better, kinder? Why sacrifice your soul by focusing on the Sabbathbon some far away race when right now the devil is fighting?”
What if I’d be like that if I could run? Health doesn’t need intense activity. It needs commitment and moderation. They will be just as healthy doing shorter runs and being more useful to their families. But maybe I’d be like them if I could run. Who knows? Or maybe I’d be out the house shopping for hours on end and neglecting my children. I don’t know the ‘worse’ that is waiting for me out there.
And so, for the saving of my soul, or to prevent me from thinking I’ve made it spiritually, the thorn is allowed. What if it’s to keep me from other harm I can’t see with my non God eyes?
Why blame me for NOT being well?
For indeed, this morning was all about blaming me. By someone who suggested charcoal??? Seriously? At least know what the disease is before telling me what to use to ‘fix’ it.
They said I should write a book 