I Don’t Know

It was just before evening worship. My eldest daughter was sick and would be sick the following day too (today.) Yesterday as we tried to take care of everyone, my son asked, “How will you survive if I leave?? There’s too much to do! They are too much for you on your own!”

I don’t know. I don’t have (with regards to maturity) an eight and nine year old. They are all four years olds, or even three years old given my not very talkative four year old is intellectually impaired. And in fact, my very talkative four year old is already a bit wiser than the eight and nine year old. If the nine year old is watching one twin, it doesn’t mean that twin is safe. You have to make sure there sure suit eyes everywhere. After all, my nine year old and eight test old still do dangerous things.

Another reason they’re not at a helpful age. Leg me start from the beginning. My Micaiah, (eight years old) threw up on Sunday evening. He then had diarrhea but not often. My eldest daughter got sick yesterday. Nausea, vomiting, fever, abdominal pain. If she tried to sip, she’d vomit. The night brought no relief so I took her to the doctor.

Time for IV. He suspects coronavirus, influenza A or.. something. She’s still down and very out.

So this led to my not very talkative twin vomiting at home! Started this morning! I dumped one child at the medical centre after they started the drip, asked the paed for a script of Zofer (Zofran) for my for year old which they emailed through. Collected the medication so my poor angel could finally lose the nausea and vomiting and be able to sip her drink and eat! And that vomiting was when I realised how different my children are. Both the eight year old and nine year old were terrified when their little sister threw up at the table! They ran away, grabbing their bowls. Scared! My poor Mickey was even whimpering in fear! It was left to my very talkative four year old to ask to help me and biggest brother wipe up the mess. ❤️

Truly, how will I survive on my own when I’m barely surviving as it is? My body is breaking down, today no amount of pain meds reduced the bone pain… I’m tired.

I don’t know. But I also didn’t know how I’d survive those terrible twin baby years yet I did. It will all come together-somehow.