Oops

This morning I was very excited. I thought I’d found a nebuliser medication that had sorted out my lungs at least overnight. I had had no wheezing or crackling till I woke. I hoped my sinuses would follow suit. I felt positive they would. And so when I woke up at 4am, I was excited to finally be well enough and awake enough to pray. After all, since two Mondays ago, I hadn’t slept because of my throat and then my lungs. I wasn’t well enough to do a proper formal, good morning prayer.

I started talking to God, “Morning God! I’m so happy to have some proper long moments of quiet with you! It’s been a while! All I have done is breathe a few prayers asking for Azola to get a job, for wisdom when she speaks on the radio.. For *Joshlin to be going… Thank you so much for being with me. For giving me life despite it not being exactly the greatest. Today…”

I then fell asleep!

So much for being awake and excited!! I fell asleep! And after having been excited about my natural nebuliser meds, it turns out I was probably just too tired to hear my chest, for my husband was woken by my rattling lungs! He thought someone was scratching at our walls and he was convinced he needed to go stop the burglar. Till he realised it was me. My lungs.😅

I am a tin man again. Which is another way for me to know Enbrel had begun working. I hadn’t been this stiff in weeks. It was as if as I walked, bone was running on bone and I was having to pull my legs up off the floor. The pain in my bones has increased from only being in my SI joints to the other areas of arthritis in my neck and spine. And my elbow with it’s not fully fixed nerve from an unfinished surgery has been screaming too.

My husband who distrusts doctors and hates medication has been insisting that I go back to the GP today. That’s how bad things are.

But hey, at least I got to have time to semi pray! It’s better than nothing, right?

*Joshlin is a six year old who went missing but unlike other stories, was fishy from the beginning. Whenever I see a missing child poster, I share it for the parents’ sake- so they know there are people who care about what they are going through. But her story was already dodgy. The little girl allegedly went missing while in the care of the mother’s boyfriend. She was home with him instead of at school as she had been feeling sick.

No offense, but “mother’s boyfriend” was already a red flag. And how did the boyfriend leave a sick child on her own, giving a kidnapper the opportunity to steal the child??

Needless to say, I was not surprised when mom, boyfriend, friend and someone else were charged with her kidnapping and human trafficking.

I just want to know what happened to the baby. Is she dead? Where is her body? If she’s alive, why has she not been returned? Has she left the country?? The little girl’s community made a big fuss when she went missing. (Well done to them!!)And the mother then called off searches maybe two days later. Talk about another red flag!

So like the people of Saldanha, I too feel like she is my child. We are owed an explanation.

Where is Joshlin?