A Better Start

The Psalms tell us to tell of God’s goodness. I don’t know if He had a hand in it, or if the flare is over, but today I had a MUCH better start to my day, and I’m HAPPY.

I usually wake up stiff, fatigued, bone tired fatigued, exhausted, very stiff (Yes, I know!) and in excruciating pain. Pain so bad I can’t move until I have pain tablets. Well, I move. But I can’t be active fully and my normal self till after the second dose of pain tablets -about six tablets spaced out over two hours. By the way, I’ve found that my shoulders are stressed or tense. They’re raised up. I have to keep telling my shoulders to relax. Is that stress or is that part of the disease? I keep getting scared I’ll fuse with my shoulders up. It’s kind of a weird feeling that I can’t really explain. Maybe it’s from ‘holding’ myself upright and keeping myself going while in pain? That tension??

Anyway, back to topic. I woke up and was able to do my Bible study. I was able to clean three large mirrors. I dusted a shelf. Then re-dusted it later when I realised the difference it makes when I clean with my glasses ON🤣and was able to sort out two loads of laundry. That’s laundry for EIGHT people! And I did all that before 6am!!

I finally needed the pain meds at 6:30am when wow, I had to go lie down quickly. Which is where I’m blogging from. But man, this was a reprieve! I got to be useful way earlier and without having to handle extreme pain and exhaustion.

It was a good 45 minutes. I hope one day to have days and months where I don’t need pain tablets to survive. Where I don’t work a bit then collapse and feel achy and broken and like my joints are grating on each other as has happened now, wondering how I’ll survive the rest of the day.

Keeping hope alive. And if God gave me those 45 minutes nice and early for a change…Thank You🙏🏾