She’s RIGHT!! Gross Photo Warning

I just hadn’t put the two together, so I wouldn’t have reported them together if I’d gone sooner. Amarissa was wondering why, unlike them, my flu symptoms are worse, and why my painful throat is not easing at all. It began Sunday and just never stopped. Talking, swallowing hurt. At night, the pain wakes me. But I put it down to the severe cough.

But there’s my tongue. I felt pain. I figured I had sores and tried to treat them. Rinvoq has done such a stellar job getting rid of my rogue immune system that now I finally got sick, I’m paying the price. Also, I am also nursing the children. So the thick furry feeling along with the pain that increases when I try eat, and when I have to talk (Do you know how much talking five children require!??) didn’t even register. I just knew I needed to get ahead of the wheezing and crackling chest that’s joining the fray so I made an appointment with a GP for tomorrow morning.

Till tonight.

I looked in the mirror and saw white taking over much of my tongue except for two small patches of normalcy that look as if my tongue was SCRAPED away there (according to my eldest) because of how full of inflammation the rest of my tongue is.

And my friend’s question, “What took you so long to go to the doctor?” was now more than right. Google says if you have chest pain – I do, if you have trouble breathing – I do, if you have thrush and the flu -I do, if your throat is sore and you have thrush-I do, get urgent care.

I won’t.

Is my throat sore from a whole lot of inflammation as seen on the tongue? Or from the virus? Or is it now have a bacterial infection and I need antibiotics?

How long will it take to heal? Is there anything at all they can give me to reduce the throat pain? OTC lozenges and sprays make no difference at all. The lozenges just hurt my sore tongue.

Did you know Sjögren’s increases your risk of oral thrush? I didn’t till now. Is it thrush? What is it?

All I know is that I have one friend unimpressed that I didn’t see the doctor faster..

Please let me find quick treatments tomorrow. I need more sleep if my twins will allow me. I loved how Twin A said she’s sure I slept well because she didn’t come wake me last night.

What she doesn’t know is that I’ve been awake since 2:30am anyway, thanks to her TWIN and then my painful throat! But it’s cute that she realises her wakefulness and coming to seek me have an impact on me and notices or assumes I got more rest when she’s had more rest. Very sweet.

Thank you, my two sisters, for worrying even when you don’t see me daily. You and Amarissa make me feel cared about. I have an adult man who comes in and out my bedroom, who is an emergency contact, but has no idea how sick I am because he couldn’t care less. If I keeled over and died, he’d not even be able to tell the pathologists that each cough hammers my head with terrible pain and I can’t swallow and the saliva is thick and choking me, my entire mouth feels like it’s been cut and each bite feels like salt digging into wounds in my tongue and gums so I’m not finishing my food and and and…

I nagged eldest and he will go in a few hours after me.

Shabbat shalom. Continued good health to those who have it.