Midnight

We’ve moved into new territory. And I don’t like it. But could the alternative be worse? I don’t want to know!

She has been refusing to sleep unless her Tablet is with her. How much sleep is she then getting?? What time does she close her eyes and sleep? I do know she either stays up, or wakes up at midnight. One time, she needed a diaper change. That waking, I could embrace. Other times, she goes to the kitchen to fetch rice to eat. The poor sheets are surely ‘shocked’ at how often they are now being washed! After she’s fetched her huge snack from the fridge, she comes to pay me a visit. Last night’s first visit was at midnight.

She snuck out just now (A bit after 10pm) and went to fetch almond milk and rice. What a combo! But fibre is great! (We eat brown rice). In the mornings, there is silence and I will then hear the Tablet again at around 9am, ten am. But today we’ve had no electricity so it didn’t charge. I think we will be in for a bumpy ride. The power bank is charged up but each time I’ve tried to charge her tablet, she’s demanded it. When I left her just now, it was only at 8%! Will she then just sleep? Or will she come crying for it? 😭I do not want to find out!

This morning I was so tired that when her twin came in to also wake me in the early morning, I didn’t have the energy to get up. I just lay there waiting for her to ask for a snack or to ask if it’s “morning time yet.” But I think she thought I was slower because she walked back out and got back under her blankets! Why didn’t you tell me I could do that? I jump up as soon as she bounces into the room.

I had a bad start to the day. This weather is bad for AS. But I’m a bit better now! Let’s see how I wake up tomorrow. And let’s see what time each twin wakes me up and how many times! I don’t even want to sleep because it’s so horrible having it disturbed multiple times.

On the other hand, Twin A came to tell me, while I was in the toilet, that she was going to “take care of” her twin. In my presence. In my room.😉 Thay consisted of her asking for a snack and then eating it in my room. Not sure she did much watching!

She truly wonders around with pots of rice or big bowls of rice.

Autism is sometimes just plain crazy funny. I don’t know WHY, but hey, eating this is much better than not eating at all. And it has to be by hand. She ignores spoons and forks when I give them to her. Her father refuses to eat from the pot after her hand has been picking grains of rice. He can’t stand the thought of her saliva. I’m not so precious. I grew up eating from one bowl with my cousins in the rural areas in December so I’m not phased.

And that, is a glimpse of my current life in Autism Land.

Sleep still eludes many of us.😅