Growing

My poor girl is growing still. NOT good. How long will her body fight before moving from its current pre diabetic state to diabetic? I noticed she was still getting puffier so I asked if we could weigh her. Within two weeks she’s gone from 67kg to 70.5kg (71 a day ago). She wakes at midnight, or 1am, she once made so much noise rustling around in the fridge at 3am that it woke me.

This is last night’s snack. As the doctor said, “Imagine how bad things would be if she was eating UNHEALTHY food!”

Next week, I’ll be emailing both doctors. Just so they know we sure aren’t MAINTAINING weight but also she’s getting taller too and growing which obviously makes you gain weight. But how much is NORMAL!?

This is worrying. I’ve seen diabetes. All those body positivity people should show us their blood test results and fitness reports.

My girl has stretch marks where I never knew they can grow. Serrated dark marks on her arm, around it as if wearing a thick black bracelet on her upper arm. I used to see little children who were extremely obese and used to wonder what disease they had.

I don’t know what my girl has. Surely half an Abilify of the smallest dose shouldn’t be this bad with causing hunger!? Can it be?